Finding Myself

I don’t feel in touch with much these days. I don’t know what’s wrong with me…I am just so disinterested in life, in my art, in everything! I just know that I can’t keep on sleeping almost all day. Seriously, I can sleep about 20 hours a day and still be tired.

Ugh!

Every day that passes that I don’t post, it gets easier and easier to keep not posting. Such a vicious cycle…a vicious, endless, ugly cycle..

Time to buck up, get my head off the pillow and rejoin life. As my sister once told me, fake it ‘til you make it. So that’s what I’m doing…trying to fake it until I really do feel happy again.

Not doing a real good job at faking it right now, though.

I really think it’s some sort of midlife crisis or something. I have this feeling that I need to find myself. I know, sounds corny but I really do feel it, deep down in my gut. I’m working on finding my true voice in my art…cause I’m just not sure. Nothing I have created in a long while feels right, just feels so forced and so contrived…not true and authentic…not ME.

*shrug*

I think I hate Facebook…but it’s like a train wreck, I just can’t help myself from staring.

Am I the only one that wonders why we care what some acquaintance from high school, twenty-five years ago, is doing at their 11 y/o kid’s soccer game? What is the magnetic pull that keeps us going back there? For that matter, what is it that makes us “friend” these people? I mean, they and us, both, didn’t give a crap about staying in touch so what changed just because of Facebook?

I dunno, just some of my thoughts right now.

Okay, I’ve made it back again. I just gotta hang on. do the writing, and make this whole blogging thing a pleasure again.

Cause it is, you know. A pleasure, I mean. It’s just that sometimes we get so caught up in “life” that we forget what it is to LIVE, we forget what it is that gives our lives pleasure. We can’t keep doing that. What is life without these little pleasures?

I know it certainly isn’t truly LIVING.

Peace & Love,
Barb

I’ve figured it out…

I know now what I’m going to do, blog-wise..

This has been my blog home for years now and I don’t want to give it up. So I’m not going to give it up, I’m just going to change my focus here…my focus and probably the blog name. Still thinking on that part.

But I do want somewhere that is 100% art journal related…since that is my passion and that’s what I’ve created. A whole brand new blog/class/workshop…yeah, it’s all of those things rolled up into one.

It’s called, quite appropriately, Art Journaling II…basically an extension of my Art Journaling tumblr, where I post photos of awesome art journal pages and journals from all over the net. It’s a way to share something I love in an ongoing class/workshop type format so I can bring art journaling to anyone who has an interest without making them wade through my other “stuff.”

If you are an art journalist or just want to be one, I hope to see you over there. If you don’t know if you might be interested in learning to art journal, why not subscribe to Art Journaling II and see if it might just be something you’d like to try.

What am I going to do here? I plan on keeping here about everything else…my life, my other art, my cooking and baking successes and failures. Two blogs, two different focuses.

So, what do you think?

Peace & Love,
~Barb~