I’ve always wanted to be one of the cool kids…one of those cool chicas who eschews television, drinks tea, does yoga, and maybe crochet or knit. Yea, I’d love to be one of the cool women but I’ve realized that really isn’t me. I can’t be something I’m not…I can’t pretend.
Then I realized that it is the same at 44 as it was when I was in high school. I just have to be myself, like what I like, do what I enjoy and the rest will continue to fall into place.
Who am I? I am the crazy woman in the neighborhood that likes to put pink flamingos in the yard, to wear paint covered overalls to Walmart if I have to run to pick up something in the middle of painting/crafting and I drink my coffee made at home and not from Starbucks, Diet Mt. Dew, not cups of hot tea.
It’s perfectly okay to just be myself. I am the best me there is; no one can ever be me.
Just my thoughts at the moment.
- Been spending much time doing the whole doctor, tests, hospital for more tests route this week. I have type II diabetes but my pancreas is shutting down completely (leading toward being on insulin instead of oral meds); I’m having upper abdominal pain and have already had problems with my liver (and kidneys) thanks to the diabetes so they don’t know if it’s my liver or gallbladder that’s causing the pain (I should find out tomorrow); and the list goes on and on. I’m really getting tired of dealing with all this health stuff…but what’s the alternative?
- I looked really hard at myself this week and realized that my outward appearance reflects how I feel on the inside…blah, rundown, achy and sick…but I’m tired of that. I haven’t worn makeup in months and not regularly for years but I want to start wearing some again. I want to wear a little makeup, already got a haircut, gonna color my hair tomorrow, pluck my eyebrows, shave my legs (LOL), dress better and just try to make my outside reflect how I WANT to feel on the inside. Who knows…maybe my body will follow suit.
- I’ve found so many new blogs that have captured my attention lately. If you’re looking for some cool places to check out, be sure to check my blog list (and click on the “see all” link). You’ll find some great art peeps, decorating blogs, crafty and thrifty chicas, lots of real women doing real things and leading real lives.
- Oh, big news…I got contacts! I had to get glasses 2 1/2 years ago (as I was diagnosed with diabetes) but I am such a clutz that I have broken them, I forget them sometimes then I can’t see anything up close, I hate that they slide down my nose and hurt my ears…now I have contacts! YAY!!!
That’s a bit of a roundup for me. I have a couple of art classes (both are art journaling workshops) that I’m taking right now, although I’m not able to put as much effort into it as I want to, thanks to all the doctor stuff this week (not to mention the change in meds making me sickie feeling and very tired) and I haven’t taken pics of much that I’ve done but here is one: And with that, I think it’s time for bed.
Take care and I’ll be back soon.
Peace & Love,